Humans...the slaves of our mind...

I guess the subject speaks for wht im going to write in..
Well, our mind truely revolves around the feeling of falling in "Love"...evrything thts good or bad is related towards our feeling for something whic we either love or hate! And yes i have fallen in Love, twice! For the first time when i did, it was the most ammazing feeling i could ever have!, and now the second time, the feeling has only improved!

Personally i think my mind is selfish, it wants what it wants, it takes others for granted, it doubts, it looses the trust it has in people, and that is something im going to change about it, for sure! This time, thankfully, i have a helping hand for me to improve things faster!
Is just that im tired of being sorry for my acts, things which i expect are so normal for any person standing in my place to do so, and stil in the end, somehow, im the one whos wrong! Im the one who expects more, , , and this is something that has always pinched me hard enough, so much that i think next time before setting up any expectations! I hear people say "I wont change", "This is me"...and i wonder if they would have liked me if i had pasted that dialogue on their face, and had behaved differently than how they wanted me to behave! Somehow i have never been able to say "No" to anyone, and never to someone i love! So in the end, its me who goes with the flow, and the person in front wants to have his own channels of water, which are soo different than wht im flowing in! Im always proved to be wrong! I mean, it has happened so many times that now sorry form my side means so little even to myself.

I dont know how many more people go thru the same feelings as i do, but it surely feels being helpless, when something so little that u want, is denied, and you are left with no option, and still you have to be sorry for expecting that little thing, it just feels like being cruel, being a looser, and its you who hurts others, which adds to that sloggy feeling of being unfair! Yeah, thts the label i get ..."Unfair"....and i wonder how to be fair??? Is expecting nothing is being "fair"?? well...tht will not just make me hate myself for being normal, but it makes me think wht im upto?

I know im not very intelligent, neither am i a stupid, but i know wht love is, i know how to love someone from all my heart, i know it soo much right! I just hope im able to understand how to be "fair" ...and just expect nothing, and shape my mind as per others priority, and learn to accept life as it comes! Probably ill b a happy person, coz according to the world, im unhappy, looser, emotional, n God knows wht other adjectives are added, without ever knowing me well!
That is how Life is...and my mind with it!

A wierd existance called "LiFe"...

Well i know its a very serious topic to right about, i dont know if i'll be doing justice to it, but its not something that will be printed down in the books of history, so i dont think this posting should give rise to any riots or similar kind of reactions!

Well, to start of with, im not "devine man", or depressed or drugged to write about this topic, which is usually boring! But giving a thought evryday events in our lifes are so interesting it makes me think why on earth do things take place the way they happen, it makes u believe in God more deeply, when things that have gone wrong now, seems to be right in the future. Then may it be a failure in a career, a rejection in an interview, or soemthing to do with 'love". Well "Love", as we all know has no explanation, definition, perception, ( all similar sounding and meaning etcs....), its abstract to its truest form!

I personally believe that whtever happens in our life, only and only happen for the good. And this i have learnt from experience. There have been many instances in my life when i have broken my friendship with good friends, at times best friends, and at that time i used to keep thinking "why"...n wht went wrong, n things lik tht, but down the line, when i used to think about it, i used to thank God tht it ended tht way,at tht time coz this time it could have been worst and even more difficult to end it. This funda goes with "love relationship" & mere "friendly reln".

Such instances have taught me tht its only "believe" in God is wht keeps you going ahead in life, Im a true believer that thers nothing in this world tht i can do better than loving someone, im the best in it! Its not a view, not a perception of someone or a conclusion based on events, its a believe tht i have within myself! Its God, tht makes me do so, its God tht will take me through it!

Rehmaniac....

Well....atlast the world recognises what i and many other maniacs like me preached and followed all these years...probably that is the reason why i or rather we rehmaniacs are very bad in learning the lyrics, but have a good ear for music...may it be hindi, english, tamil, or even marathi, my God has his portrait filled with all these colors...Music has been my blood, throughout my life, in my happy days, in the sad ones, in the ones without any of these feelings...i thank God he gave me a good ear for music! I feel im blessed....Music is something that can et the world together, like how one song,"Vande Mataram" got this nation together, like how "Pray for me brother" got the world together! N now, its with slumdog millionaire that the world peeps into Indian Music...n wonders how on earth our music is much filled with emotions, and soul....and so much meaning hudden deep into it....I feel proud to be an Indian, and more proud coz i have been into music truely, with all my heart and soul in it.....

My Job...

Well, i have spoken a lot about things going around me, but never actually wrote any stuff about myself. Well thers nothign really different or wierd or sellable about me...Im just normal.Well, i would like to mention about my company, yeah we all call it our company, Asian Paints!! Im not marketing the brand, by Gods grace the company is doing good enough to grow even in this difficult time. Im mentioning it coz i think it has given me my identity. I still remember i used to roam around with my CV in my hand after completing my graduation. I joined HDFC as a telle caller, i didnt like it, i confessed it to the manager there and even opted to try out something else, but i was thrown out! I use to roam on the streets of Matunga collecting funds for an NGO, working for a direct marketing company, used to eat dabba sitting under a tree at 5 Gardens, used to meet HR personels of various companys, n do a lot of stuff to get a job wher i could learn n grow, then Asian Paints came into my life!! N i feel blessed n really lucky to be a part of this awesome organisation at 20 years of age! I feel proud to say that i work for Asian Paints, we paint your world! I hope i continue giving my best, and avoid as many "Stock Outs" as possible!!.....

Our Rich Beggers.....atleast most of them...

Just yesterday while on my way to office, i saw a begger, his leg had a big scar...something that i thought was curable...then i in a matter of a minute i saw 3 people give him a ruppee..i started wondering how much that begger must be earning in a day...
In Mumbai, at any given point of time atleast 20 people either get in or out of the station ( during peak hours the figure can be as high as 50 ) ..
so even if we take an average of 30 people a minute, of those 30 atleast 3 must be giving him a ruppee....
Thts 3 Rs / minute / day....( this figure is really an underestimated one ),
So 3 Rs / minute, consider if he must be sitting there for 10 hours a day ( which they can easily do ) , 10 hours = 600 Minutes,
600 minutes x 3 rs = 1800 rs / Day.

Now keep in mind that the cost of earning this is absolutely nothing in terms of money.
1800 rs / day,
54000 Rs / Month ( More than what an MBA graduate for a top B-school will earn at his first job ),
Rs. 648000 a year ( Thts more than what a salaried couple earn together annually ).

Now comes the main point ot be considered, knowing that there is no investment cost to earn this money, an important fact is that no Tax is paid on this earning. So eventually, this money is drained out of the system and might be converted into black money, which flows into all types of grey markets in our country, giving our government absolutely no returns over it.

Thus next time you think of giving a begger some money thinking its your moral responsibility or assuming you will be blessed,,,,,think over again!!!

To take care of these people is the responsibility of the Government, the more you help them, the lesser will the government do.

No one turns into a begger coz he gets money, he knows he'll get money so he begs!

Even i sympathise with the poor, but let the government do their piece of work and uplift their life, rather than we draining the money out of the system.

My Mind....

We all know the high spirit of mumbai and the culture that has helped Mumbai go through its difficult and bad days. These bad days of floods, riots, bomb blasts etc are always fresh in our minds. the way the city comes together and works selflessly for the wellbeing of fellow citizens. But why do we also have a history of riots, religion biases, and other disturbing factors n our society??? Or is it that we always need a bad event to get the good out of us??? or a inhuman event to get the Human out of us?? Why do we need a flood to get Hindus and Muslims come together and help the people?? Why do we need the blood from the riot victims to make people ashamed of their acts?? Or is it the age factor that we love to Cure rather that to Prevent??

The answer is probably hidden deep in our society and our culture. We in India don't like to discuss topics which might hurt now, but might help clear the differences and misunderstandings. We don't like to watch movies which show the truth, how hard it might be. We hate to add such events in our history text books with the fear of another unthoughtful reaction from the people. Why do we love to stay in a state of Illusions or rather to be frank, why do we always prefer to keep the Hard truth away and the sweet and happy illusions near?? We all talk about India becoming a Super power, fastest growing economy, etc etc....but is our internal frame structure of Beliefs and Religions capable enough to adopt to the changing needs of this advance growing world economy??? We still have riots being purposely planned and worked out, just for few amount of money. We still have Government being least interested about the future and very much interested in increasing their revenue balance. Its not that we don't know all this, but the fact is that we just like anyone else prefer to ignore it. We think that these issues affect us the least where the fast is that they really affect us a lot. When we pay our taxes, its our responsibility to see to it that our efforts and our hard earned money is being utilized properly.

Thats only the money aspect. What about the atmosphere or rather the social culture? These days there is a lot of hype about the kissing and about the couples sitting at Bandstand,etc. I agree that its not good for the couples to sit in a obscene manner, but then why not have a lovers park or garden exclusively for couples?? So many countries have lovers park, why cant we? Its only a matter of we respecting them and giving them the privacy or rather the right atmosphere needed.

During this controversy, any senior citizens were talking about our Indian culture and traditions. We all are proud of our culture, but also we should understand that there should be few changes in the beliefs and thinking of the society. I think that Mumbai is not at all safe for women. Just stand on the railway platform and see the way men traveling in train tease or pass vulgar comments on the girls or women standing on the platform.Is this our culture? A women who has consensual sex with her husband is given all the respect and dignity in our society and a women who is raped, is looked with awe and disrespect! IS this our culture? When we talk about our culture, we hide what is wrong in it, and only emphasis on what is good.Why? Why can't we talk about and discuss that faults and drawbacks of our society? Why do we hate to watch movies which bring in the hard truth about our society and its practices? Or is it that we like to stay in a illusive atmosphere where everything seems to be so nice and happy!

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