Humans...the slaves of our mind...

I guess the subject speaks for wht im going to write in..
Well, our mind truely revolves around the feeling of falling in "Love"...evrything thts good or bad is related towards our feeling for something whic we either love or hate! And yes i have fallen in Love, twice! For the first time when i did, it was the most ammazing feeling i could ever have!, and now the second time, the feeling has only improved!

Personally i think my mind is selfish, it wants what it wants, it takes others for granted, it doubts, it looses the trust it has in people, and that is something im going to change about it, for sure! This time, thankfully, i have a helping hand for me to improve things faster!
Is just that im tired of being sorry for my acts, things which i expect are so normal for any person standing in my place to do so, and stil in the end, somehow, im the one whos wrong! Im the one who expects more, , , and this is something that has always pinched me hard enough, so much that i think next time before setting up any expectations! I hear people say "I wont change", "This is me"...and i wonder if they would have liked me if i had pasted that dialogue on their face, and had behaved differently than how they wanted me to behave! Somehow i have never been able to say "No" to anyone, and never to someone i love! So in the end, its me who goes with the flow, and the person in front wants to have his own channels of water, which are soo different than wht im flowing in! Im always proved to be wrong! I mean, it has happened so many times that now sorry form my side means so little even to myself.

I dont know how many more people go thru the same feelings as i do, but it surely feels being helpless, when something so little that u want, is denied, and you are left with no option, and still you have to be sorry for expecting that little thing, it just feels like being cruel, being a looser, and its you who hurts others, which adds to that sloggy feeling of being unfair! Yeah, thts the label i get ..."Unfair"....and i wonder how to be fair??? Is expecting nothing is being "fair"?? well...tht will not just make me hate myself for being normal, but it makes me think wht im upto?

I know im not very intelligent, neither am i a stupid, but i know wht love is, i know how to love someone from all my heart, i know it soo much right! I just hope im able to understand how to be "fair" ...and just expect nothing, and shape my mind as per others priority, and learn to accept life as it comes! Probably ill b a happy person, coz according to the world, im unhappy, looser, emotional, n God knows wht other adjectives are added, without ever knowing me well!
That is how Life is...and my mind with it!